Plans

I had so many new ideas for projects yesterday. So many plans.

I made a list of all the new stuff I wanted to accomplish.
I wanted to start a written journal of my day to day activities.
I wanted to get my hair colored all the colors of the rainbow.
I wanted to take that prometrics exam for nurses.
I had a lot of new plans...

I wanted to tell you all about them. I couldn't wait to tell you all about them.

Then it hit me.

I couldn't.

I couldn't tell you all about my plans and ask for your support and opinion.

I couldn't because you told me not to contact you anymore.
Out of the blue I started crying inside the bathroom because I felt so sad that I couldn't talk to you anymore...

I constantly wonder how you are.

Where have you been? What have you been up to? Have you eaten anything weird lately?

It's lonely without you and what hurts the most is not knowing if you still think of me at all...